Warning: General “life” blog post ahead. Stop reading if my everyday flow of inconsequencial events is nauseating to you. But I figure It’s been a while.
It wasn’t long ago I felt suffocated and stuck, but lately I’ve been breathing quite easy. Well, not literally… my sinuses have been playing up… but uh, yeah. It’s that sort of on-flow from one thing to another. Domino effect. Positive feelings about one thing seep into other areas and suddenly you’re feeling fresh about things. So what’s changed? Really, not a lot. Just a greater feeling of self-acceptance, and the realisation that other people’s expectations are exactly that… other people’s expectations.
I know it’s been a short time, but I am feeling absolutely smitten about Jaci. Dare I say, I love Jaclyn. And it feels great. At times scary, but great. We really bring out the best in each other. Who knows what the future holds, but every second spent in her company is a second worth living. And I feel more myself than I’ve ever allowed myself to feel before. It’s liberating. And for once I’m living in the moment, and not not in the fear of the future. I can feel my walls crashing down.
I am adoring ‘Six Feet Under’, the TV series. I hadn’t watched it at all a few weeks ago, but the DVDs were cheap and it seemed interesting. But now I’m hooked. For those who don’t know, it’s a series about a family and a funeral home. The characters are intriguing and very human. It’s a tad dark, but I believe it’s written/created by the writer of my favourite movie (American Beauty), so it’s unsurprising. I’m just at the tail-end of season two, so there’s still three and a bit seasons to go. But I await them muchly.
I’m still skating. Slowly getting competent. No strange stories like before. But it is a lot of fun. I’m still not game to go the steeper inclines, but my balance and control is getting decent and it sure makes going to the shops a lot more enjoyable. I’m yet to seriously hurt myself, also. Although I did nearly land in some dog shit the other day. My major problem is that the road is a hell of a lot smoother than the dodgy pavements around here. But I don’t want to get wiped out by a car. While walking the other day I did discover this totally brilliant stretch of side-streets that are amazingly quiet during the day, and perfect for cruising. I aim to give them a run tomorrow. Should be a lot of fun.
Oh! I totally forgot. My mum had her 50th birthday party the other weekend. Fucking fifty! I wonder if I’ll ever make it that far. She had a ’south pacific’ theme. It’s some shit musical movie that was released the year of her birth. But holy shit, it was worth it to see old people in bad bad Hawaiian shirts and floral necklaces. There was a cocktail machine, much beer, much wine, and… much to my demise, a karaoke machine. Which I, in my Piña Colada’d up state, abused. Ruining music by soft cell, green day (sue me), and the beatles. Although the highlight was hijacking my brother and his girlfriend’s rendition of a spice girls song. The ziggy-zig AH one. It was hot. Other embarrassments include asking my neighbor of many years how he knew my mum (after not recognizing him), having our cleaner (who was invited) of many many years telling me i was ‘never like this!’, being stuck between my two crazy (and drunk) uncles AND my grandma with my girlfriend as they made never-ending (but hilarious) conversation, and err… lapdancing Jaci in view of my dad…? But it was a fun fun night.
Seen a couple of movies lately. It’s a bit of a dry spell, but whatever. ‘Horton Hears a Who’, ‘Drillbit Taylor’, and ‘Semi-Pro’. Horton had amazing animation, but was a lot less humorous than I’d hoped. Definately the best Dr Seuss movie to be created, though. And I love those books (and poetry style) to death. Drillbit was worth it for Owen, though he was not at his best. It felt a lot like a PG (and younger) version of Superbad, which is unsurprising given the people involved. And Semi-Pro I went in with no expectations, but enjoyed. Mostly for the ludicrously overacted WIll Farrell parts, peppered with Will Arnett (from Arrested Development). So all in all, nothing life-changing but all were quite entertaining in there own way.
I’m becoming increasingly more certain that I’m going to end up back at Uni. More on this later, I suppose.
But yes, I’m feeling that fresh feeling.
